i’m lazy to start on mathematics so i shall post this then go study. kope this from vivian and somehow her post began something like that too. =D

001. name : yeokailinJODIE
002. nickname: dear, deary, darling, jo-die, *ahem*pudding
003. single or taken : single by morning, taken by night (ah! kidnappers in my dreams!)
004. zodiac sign : scorpio
005. male or female : female but gay(:
006. elementary : st nicks!
007. high : st nicks!
008. college : hope it’s that college
009. eye color : black or dark brown
010. hair color : i think it’s black or dark brown too
011. long or short hair : short
012. shoe size : 6.5 to 7.5
013. asthma? : used to
014. are you health freak : not really.
015. height : 161.5 argh.. lets round up to 162(:
016. do you have a crush on someone: kaypoh quiz.
017. do you like yourself: not really?
018. piercings : two, one on each ear
019. tattoos : nope. but i shall get a dragon or tiger one soon! =D
020. righty or lefty : do the RIGHT thing!

FIRSTS:
022. first surgery : perhaps when i was really young because i dont recall xD
023. first piercing : 6 years old i think.
024. first bestfriend : some random kid in kindergarten
025. first movie : i think it was some disney movie
026. First sport you joined: swimming counted?
027. first pet : fishies!
028. first vacation : when i was a few months old?
029. first concert : in k2?
030. first crush : longgggg agooooo

CURRENTLY :
049. eating : saliva?
050. drinking : amylase?
052. i am : feeling enthu about math.
053. listening to : the news on channel 8
055. waiting for : 080807!
057. wearing : pe attire!

YOUR FUTURE :
058.want kids? : two boys two girls! if possible luh..
059. want to get married? : duh. if not how to have kids.
060. careers in mind? : TOURISM sector! say yay with vivian(:

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :
068. lips or eyes?: must have both right? why will i prefer someone with one of those only, mutant luh!
069. hugs or kisses : BOTH. as long as it’s sincere(:
070. shorter or taller : dont mind
072. romantic or spontaneous : both i guess?
073. stomach or arms : i like arms on a stomach! haha! gross!
074. sensitive or loud: it depends =D
075. hook-up or relationship: ‘free’ for a night! haha! realtionship duh!

HAVE YOU EVER :
078. kissed a stranger : no(: but i shall kiss a little kid i dont know if he or she is really cute(:
080. lost glasses/contacts : dont have either.
081. ran away from home : yeah. when i was almost late for school xP gosh so cold..
082. broken any bones : i will break yours(:
084. broken someone’s heart : wahh. there are people with hearts?!
085. been arrested : nope!
086. turned someone down : vivian! i said i dont like you anymore!
087. cried when someone died : dont think so!
088. liked a friend : a friend is someone you like right?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. yourself: no
090. miracles : obviously not
091. love at first sight : that means a superficial thing right?
092. heaven : maybe! if i see angels.
093. santa claus : yeah. it was some nicholas guy what..
094. fairies : yeah. if they’re those kids from kindergarten..
095. kissing on the first date : how i know?
096. angels : wait till i see them first.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
097. Is there one or more people you want to be with right now? : of course, but it’s kind of impossible.
098. Is Superman really better than Batman? : no? batman’s smarter! he hides himself behind a mask not like superman!
099. Have you had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at the same time? : do i look like i have?
100. Ever did anything naughty before?: not doing homework? ponning comm meeting which i just did!

GOSH. FIRST TIME I PONNED SOMETHING (not including math remedial).

YOUTH MEDIATOR FORUM;

yayness to suntec because it brought us lots of joy! especially with vivian, genin, beckie, boennarti, chenmun and jinghan and last but not least, ms rockey! super fun though it wasnt much of a forum but more of a talk. and subway with some of them was nice, gossiping and bitching is also our cup of tea.=D met a few of the 13slc people as well as jonlim and michael bin. and vivian’s primary schoolmate is EXTRA. xP

went to study with jiaee and vivian at swirl afterwards and i think it was more productive than my usual studying though i did only one question of math since usually i dont even touch. so great job jodie!

i thought it through last night. i dont care whether i get into the student council anymore. at least i really used this opportunity to be a prefect for a year by going for all the conventions that really opened up my eyes to the world as well as widening my social circle. thanks to the PMB, i was able to go for PSC, acjc crossroads, 13SLC as well as the recent youth mediator forum. and i’ve learnt a lot over this period of time. 至少我曾经拥有过。i’m not like some people who just do their duties and that’s it. i tried my best to achieve the best for the school as well as myself. oh wells. but i wont mind to 再一次拥有.

i’m freaking tired of myself and my stupid habits and antics.

first was math test and it was horrible because i only know how to do one full question and it seriously sucked. this is like the first math test i studied for and it just sucked.

what was worse was the actual fact that for the first time in my life, my nametag got confiscated, by myself. i just reached class to collect my bag to go to cca and i totally forgot about english oral downstairs and the people in the class were making a lot of noise. and jeya just popped in about 5 seconds later. and she scolded us and made me confiscate the nametags and go find her later.

i did, at around four thirty and the best part was, gwong was right beside. i could sense the disappointment when he said, “jodie ah..” and also in miss jeya when she told me that she didnt expect me to do this. gosh. i almost wanted to cry, which i did in instalments from the moment i stepped out of the staffroom till now.

this is so going to halve my chances of getting into student council. i’m super scared about tomorrow’s pmb meeting tomorrow. it’s getting tougher to concentrate when i get reminded of the three tests. gosh.

DANCE FANTASIA;

went for pepperlunch first with vivian and vicki! going out with the two of them is just like going out with some monkeys, and perhaps i am one of them. in short, it was great fun! we took the mrt towards jurong east and managed to get a seat. we were wondering why the train had so little people and we realised that it was because it was terminating at yishun! dumb us.

we reached clementi and took a bus to the UCC, was singing the whole time and it was purely CHINESE =D so fun so fun. upon reaching the UCC, we saw ms stella and said hi. then mrs tian approached us and apparently, she thought we were some dance girls and wanted us to take attendance but we went to the toilet.

we went in to sit at the grand circle or whatever you call it and we were 5 seats away from mrs tian. we had to walk past her and she asked me how many dance girls were not here yet. and again, she thought i was a dance girl. wow.

du laoshi went too! and some idiotic chinese teacher who taught me for a day and marie’s brother! he was damn freaked out by the st nicks dance girls screaming and he closed his years everytime they announced our school.

i like yiochukang sec’s indian dance! nice nice(: all the performances were really nice and it was my first time seeing such great lighting and costumes. really fabulous, except, CAT HIGH. their performance was really amateurish and they were playing with some elastic band which they used like toilet paper. weird. but overall it was fun plus i saw chyifang(: saw her during recess too though. but havent seen her for very long.

talking about dance, onetruth won dikirbarat! and they’ll be performing during national day! so looking forward to it. i bet it’ll be nice =D

my aunt’s on herworld featuring private banking! three pages with her picture you know!

later meeting up with the elderly facs and some youths! changed the venue to swirl instead of ecp though. because it’s a rainy day. yay!

running is fun, especially if it’s on a hot and sunny day. getting roasted is like fantabulous. o’ level listening comprehension sucks big time. it was horrible. we reported at 2.30pm and listened to classical music till 3pm when it officially started. by that time, i was so sleepy due to the peaceful music and i couldnt stay awake! fell asleep by the fourth passage which is the last one. missed like practically the whole thing, but luckily i woke up during the repeat. they whole thing’s kind of inferential, TOUGH TOUGH. but i guess i’ll be fine. A1 jiayou!

1.Who sat behind you in science?
stephtan and eliz.

2. Last text you received on your mobile was from?
OLLIE DEAR!

3. If you could kiss anyone who would it be?
TAOLI! and my eyecandy! gosh, this is so gay.

4. What song are you listening to?
ai ai ai- fukuan singing now.

5. Who does it remind you of?
haha. thalia? heard it during the bus trip to work(:

6. Last movie you watched?
order of the phoenix, boring.

7. Which of your friends lives closest to you?
michelle anne lim!=D

8.What CD is in your stereo?
i dont think anything’s inside.

9. Do you have a job?
yepp. school’s labourer.

10. What did you do yesterday?
bought prezzies for two loved ones!

11. When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
today.
12. Do you wear contacts or glasses?
neither. PREFECT EYESIGHT.

13. Last person you ditched class with?
i’m a guaikia! only dont do homework!

14. If you found out you got pregnant, what would you do?
yay! i love kids! especially if they’re girls like jovita!

15. Do you trust your friends?
kind of. :/

16. Who was the last person to call you?
mummy

17. What annoys you?
myself, i’m super annoying.

18. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
if it’s free, why not?

19. Next vacation you’re going on?
chiang rai and bangkok i guess, to visit my grandpa.

20. Do you play any instruments?
no. i’m musically dead though i want to play stuff like the saxaphone or the cello.

21. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
hmm. kind of.

22. Do you want any piercings?
i have ear piercings, one on each side.(: planning to get another on my left after o levels next year.

23. Can you roll your R’s?
no..

24. Did you ever go to Prom?
not yet. but soon(: next year.

25. Look out the window.
darkness.

26. What are your nicknames?
gay, darling, jo-die, pudding?

27. Last time you went to the mall?
yesterday.

28. Who last MSNed you?
having 13slc facs mass convo now.

29. What kind of music do you like?
mandopop!

30. What was the last thing you ate?
cooked stuff?

31. Ever snuck outta the house?
kind of..

32. Which of your friends would make the best roommate?
vivian!

33. Last thing you purchased?
grass jelly. haha!

34. What’s your favorite beverage?
i just drink la. dont really care.

35. Would you stop talking to your friend if they started hooking up with your new guy?
i doubt so.

36. Do people ever spell your name wrong?
yeah. like jody, jodi and stuff.

37. What’s the last compliment you received?
i dont remember compliments.

38. Are you watching tv?
campus superstar(:

39. What are some physical features you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
haha. i dont know. i prefer those guaikias though. i cant stand paikia guys.

40. Last time you spent the night at someone’s house?
two weeks ago i think, at my grandma’s house.

and yay! my lovely NICOLE CHAN said that i can go for the track finals! i love my TRUTH sec ones. they are super duper LOVELY=D

it’s been about fourty-one days since the last day of slc and twenty days since i last saw most of the facs, not including eath day’s studying session. it’s been a really long and torturous break and i guess we really do have a lot of commitments and matters to attend to.

i really miss everyone a lot, especially the facs since they’re closer to me than my group. i guess after consortium meeting A, i built a barrier between my group and i possibly because i felt like such a loser, letting them quarrel and i cant do anything about it. but everything’s over and i’m happy about it.

it’s been such a long time waiting, and such a short time enjoying it. boom, and everything’s over. moreover, nobody’s free enough to organise anything besides some service learning project. and i’m not free on that day. i guess can only wait and wait and look forward to next saturday.

and yayness! i can go for the youth mediator workshop! super duper happy as i was really upset when mr wong said that vivian and i might not be able to go because there was an overwhelming response and vivian and i had gone for a lot of the conventions. thanks to yongmei, who had hockey, and jiaee who sacrificed her place for ours! thank you jiaee, i really appreciate it! especially since i have a 99% chance of not being able to go for any of these anymore next year.

yayness again to our duper nice class tee! so sorry for assuming some of the sizes because the uncle told us that the S was a huge for us and we agreed. thus, resulting in some unhappiness! so sorry! but the class tee is really nice!

had a suggestion from michelle anne about national day. she suggested wearing red fbts and the class tee! red and white! =D cool!

and im starting to like my tablemate more and more–vicki(: though she can get a little weird and annoying but yayness to chinese songs! haha! and i got violated today, she kissed me! i was just posing as usual and she just kissed my cheek! rahh! and when chinara was standing next to me, i turned and wanted to fly a kiss and vicki pushed her towards me! and i kiss chinara! AHHHH!

gosh, today’s such a kissy day.

SWIMMING FINALS WAS THE LOVE<33

especially since i saw so so so many people– 13slc people like natalie, tzeqing, bird, florence, jay, nella and RI people like matthias, jonlim, michael bin and some other people. like marcus from campus superstar, which vicki think is hot, but i guess he looks better in person than on tv.

trying to keep up with the raffles cheer was fun, entertaining the sec ones behind me. but it was really fun! like going ra-ra-ra-raffles… and punching the air, laughing at the people. st nicks was screeching all the way and i guess we were quite loud compared to the other schools who had the same amount of supporters. and i was super hyper, screaming like mad when taoli swam. i want her autograph, i want to take picture with her!=DD TAOLI<33

my eyecandy came! and she dyed her hair and algae-y green. but still she’s my eyecandy. but i was super sad when i realised that i forgot all about her when i saw TAOLI! sigh! but TAOLI=D

st nicks did pretty well and cheering for them was tough, since we were trying to be louder than raffles but some people were not enthusiastic at all. but i was=D i regret not taking a camera with me. i regret not taking a camera with me.

sat with HH and talked about you-know what-you-know-who and it was really fun except that she thinks i like you-know-who, but seriously, i wont snatch from HH la! even if you say you dont like him anymore, like i will believe it. it’s so obvious that you still like him. keep him for yourself la. i have my own crush!

while waiting for prize presentation, we watched synchronised swimming, FIRST TIME in my life that it’s live! super nice! and KARON was performing! all of them was super pro and karon’s performance was the BESTEST! we left before the prize presentation because it was getting pretty late.

i want to go for track and field finals now! shall ask huimin whether she’s inside. and i will go support st nicks at track and field! so exciting!

have been running for the past few days, hope i’ll persevere and i’ll join a marathon in the days to come. perhaps end of year or next year. =D deborah, jiayou with me!

how i wish i can put this determination into my studies.. i want to be top 20% of the country again. and now i’m just falling deeper and deeper into the hole. i need to climb out soon before i get buried alive.

i dont really know what to blog about. except that i’m starting to live my life as time passes and im starting to lose my goals. thinking too much of goals that i can’t achieve. especially after isabelle said that i have the hcjc look and deborah, the rjc look. and like the saying, ‘do not judge a book by its cover’. and that means it wont happen in short.

and i realise how important it is to have fun people like deborah, wanjuan and isabelle in class. i like the way they make me go mad and forget about all my worries. and i like the way we eat ice cream. =D and it’s fun. and thanks to deborah’s really ‘fast’ speed in running, my calves are aching slightly. but super happy that i can survive four rounds even though ive not ran for a long time. and i lost weight. =D

and i cant believe he’s sec two. i dont know why, but he just don’t look sec two, since RI investiture, i’ve always thought he was some sec three or four. anyway, i’m so looking forward to something! so so fun! and i can go around hugging people again. havent hugged for ages. and i think i need it. so if any of you want to give me a hug. go ahead. =D

yayness. the class t-shirt is finally going to be done. and it’s fourteen dollars and i quite like the design, just hope that it turns out fine. (: and i’m glad that they’re going to rush it out for us. that’s really good.

on the bus trip to the mrt station, vivian, vicki and i went up to the wonderful bus 268 and vicki walked in the front ending up with ,”F***!” and turning back. realising some HOT guy, we squeezed ourself as far to the corner as we could and waited for the space between us to fill up. kissing the window and squishing each other was fun. until vibrations came about and we were super panicky. the HOT guy called vicki, and i, but i didnt know. rahh. luckily he didnt stop the same stop as us, but the stop before. phew.

and he smses super fast, he took one hour. yay.

and stupid vivian and vicki put nat and i again. all because of vivian’s big mouth. i seriously have nothing going on and am not planning to. i’m single but unavailable.=D

going out with vicki and vivian is fun, like a bunch of giggling monkeys. perhaps we can try that again. and i’m looking forward to our t-shirt!

i just stayed over at my grandmother’s house for a night and my dad drowned his sorrows with wine, half a bottle to be exact. and that was something i dont expect my dad to do especially since he gets tipsy after a drop of wine. i wont go into the details because i dont see the point in ranting about problems between my parents when they arent working out a solution.

yesterday, i changed my mind in the morning and decided to go for the mugging thing. BUT i didnt sit with them, i went and did my work alone. and seriously, i miss everyone so much that i can just scream every one of their names out loud in public. but it was more of a st nicks facs mugging thing yesterday. and i’m so not interested in studying with them. i dont see the point. it just makes me feel worse and dumb. they remind me of ms quek and i believe seeing the st nicks facs is just like sending myself to hell. i dont know, but i hate st nicks and hate the school’s system and hate the people in it. i dont care if you’re my bestie or what, but everythign is st nicks suck and so do i.

ok. i should stop being so evil, i’m feeling so un-LOVED. hoho. i miss everyone too much plus i’m pms-ing. and i had a sudden craze for books and i read ‘the christmas blessings’ by donna vanliere and it is super nice. and sad, it’s full of sufferings and death. however, love was always there to fill it up. and last night, i read ‘too young to die’ by lauren mcdaniel or something like that. it’s nice too and sad, vicki told me about it and i’m getting hooked. and it makes me happy that even though they are loved more than i am, i am healthier than them and i am able to change my life if i want to, unlike them, where they are hanging on to a piece of thread, going to break any second.

i dont seem to be making any sense.

13slc; [facs] i miss 13slc and the buses 74/852, and the (pauses for a long while) facs.

this week has been really tiring as well as fruitful. i dont know why, but a lot happened these few days. but i believe they happended with a reason.

this week has been full of up and downs but for once, i thought everything was quite well-balanced even though it’s not. i guess it’s because i’m in a happier mood than usual.

today was an up and down day but i guess it’s really fine but really tiring. i think i did well in class today, i paid full attention for the whole day. though that’s not surprising or anything, i usually pay full attention anyway. but there was no biology today.(: that’s important. and i did three hours of duty today which is a great acheivement. although i ran all the way to the library so that i’ll do counter duty the whole time, i did duty.(: i did my class tee stuff the whole time though.

this morning, first thing is the morning, the prefects had a WONDEROUS meeting. A scolding from gwong because there was an increase in the number who couldnt make it for the prefects dinner. and everything he was saying, everything he was scolding about was me, even though i wasnt one of them who wasnt coming. horrible attitude, complaints from teachers– not doing homework and paying attention in class, going for our own dinner instead of the prefects dinner. fine, it’s all me. but the going for our own dinner part is all wrong, i said that i would rather go out and have our own dinner if so few people are going, not that im trying to pull everybody to join me for dinner. urgh.

and that the current situation is like this because they didnt filter the PMB. you’re happy now because you’re going to filter us next year when the students’ council is formed. and yay, i’ll be top on your list, like duh. i dont really care about next year because i dont want to be the school’s labourer any further. what’s the point when the school’s system and teachers are screwed? everything is about popularity and how much you suck up to teachers. and i dont think they’re the potential leaders or the influential people. all i know is that they have friends and lots of them, everything is about popularity and every teacher is biased.

but i dont see the point bothering about such stuff when i’m supposed to be enjoying myself and doing what i want to do before my life ends. i’m going to live with this for the time being. everything will get better anyway.

and most importantly, it’s a friday. and fridays are beautiful.

all the way for HUIMIN and SHUFEN!

you two can do it and even if you dont become the head. you know that there’ll be your CAMPAIGN TEAM behind you always!

i guess the rally went on quite fine. except that for shufen’s they lowered the volume too much and we couldnt hear. so our plans were sort of ruined but i guess overall it was quite nice because of our vibrant red/orange/yellow shirts, red ribbons on hair and red/orange/yellow boxes to contain the fireballs. not to forget, the ’silky’ sheer cloth to create the flame-y effect. running up and down was dumb though, some people fell onto the audience i think..

helped huimin afterwards. right afterwards, i should say. and when i heard huimin’s speech, i was like, ZOMG, when did her voice become this nice?! her voice was like some counsellor of some sort, so soothing and calming and SWEET, like a goddess. and through her speech, I REALLY FELT THE G-LOVE. and we had to sing the song loudly and i think it was only the people at the side singing, not those on the stage. those on stage were staring at us. hilarious.

but i guess, this year is the best since it’s our last year taking part in the rally. and not just listening and sleeping. i guess, sec three is really a fun year, taking into consideration that we are prefects and not junior prefects and we get to go for conventions like PSC and 13SLC. and it seems like everything is going so fast perhaps because i’m finally putting time to better use, instead of going out everyday to slack and stone. i do more constructive stuff now and take things more seriously. i’m living my life to the fullest, even though i believe that ms quek will not agree with me.

but this is me and this is how i want my life to be–full of fun and vibrance, a dynamic, meaningful and colourful life. i guess homework is just a small part of my life, and it is definitely not the tops on my priorities. family, social life, myself, school. i guess it may seem wrong but this is what i want. everybody’s different and have different goals and different meaning of life. and ms quek, i obviously dont share the same thoughts as you.

anyway, today’s mathematics test was tough. or perhaps because i wasnt thinking hard and didn’t revise. oh wells. it’s over and there’s nothing i can do. (: sanguoyanyi test was tough since i didnt read the book, not like any of us knew how to do. we were chatting and asking li lan laoshi for hints. and we ended up chatting from 3.15 to 4pm and for library. and i realised our higher chinese is EC standard. smart in short, for chinese only. hahahs.

and so happy that i got 13/25 for social studies. 70% of the cohort failed. and i’m the minority who passed. like SOCIAL STUDIES. unbelievable. even though it’s by half mark only. but i’m contented(:

nothing much to be happy about when there is:
1) english literature and shakespeare
2) mathematics test
3) geography homework
4) mathematics homework
5) san guo yan yi test
6) library
7) mole concept
shufen’s campaign/rally
9) results and more results. good ones i hope.
10) chinese o’ level orals

but yay, chinese o’ level orals are over and i think i should be able to get a distinction since i got A2 for the mock one and i am very sure i did loads better in this one.

as for the rest, i guess i seriously have to manage my time properly because that’s what i cant do. and this two weeks will be the the most ‘hardworking’ week for me as i am for once, going to complete every single thing that i owe the teachers. and that i will try to be determined. i dont want to fall behind anymore in terms of homework. i’m sick of it. i’m going to try my best to kick this bad habit of mine.

campaign’s going to start tomorrow! all the way SHUFEN and HUIMIN!(: so sorry to shufen for not putting in much effort but dont worry, i’ll be high tomorrow! huimin, so sorry that i’m not doing much for you even though i told you i’ll help you, you didnt tell me what to do though, but so sorry!

okay. and now, i’m still waiting for vivian’s email.

BACK FROM THE CRUISE;
i guess it was supposed to be a good rest and perhaps a litle fun? but i guess i did have fun and stuff. but i just have to be reminded of the edc production cum facs outing. and ended up feeling really ’sour’ inside. going for cruise the same day as edc production– terrible.

anyway, cruise first. the cruise was really fun except that i got a little giddy in the beginning. but i was fine after. it was mainly eating and eating. and sleeping and sleeping. i slept on the upper ‘deck’, a folded down bed hanging ‘mid air’. really fun though. but we switched off all lights at night and it was really dark. but i had kenneth’s bugs bunny and my mp3 with me. which improved the situation.

the food was pretty good. except that i kept gorging myself for no good reason. and we spent a lot at the arcade. went for karaoke but it was the ‘open’ kind and i didnt dare to sing in front of anybody. megan selected the song ‘walk away’ thinking that it was kelly clarkson’s but it ended up to be some really old song and we were laughing our heads off.

really great to be home because it was getting boring on the cruise since we kept eating and that was it.

and most importantly, home is the place to emo due to the fact that i slept with my mum in a cabin, i cant possibly cry in front of her for not being at the edc production.

Tessa says:
you? left out?
13slc; [facs] jodie© why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again says:
as in, i couldnt make it
13slc; [facs] jodie© why am I so afraid to crash down and lose my heart again says:
and it reminded me of being left out and stuff
Tessa says:
but you’re not left out
Tessa says:
jodie! you imagining things?
Tessa says:
you’re so nice and caring and funny and you organised the soccer and it
Tessa says:
has occured to me that i haven’t been to any facs outing so far

tessa is the love<33 and she cheered me up!

and i guess i wont go for mugging sessions tomorrow. shall just go some nearby and do my work. but i miss hwachong loads. and soccer. doubt they’ll play though. and i doubt they even realised that i wasnt there yesterday. which is like sad? and i am sad.

and i miss people. so i shouldnt go because that’ll just make me emo all over again. and i’ll just regret not hugging them. and not treasuring the time enough.

i regret being in 13slc. the aftermath of 13slc is really tough and terrible to experience. and i dont know why but i tend to feel left out easily. perhaps i dont trust them enough. or perhaps i expect too much from them but they disappointed me. i dont know and i doubt i find out.

just not long ago, i was having a bad time accepting everything and when i finally did, a couple of weeks later, everything just comes back. whats the point?

i sense a tinge of regret in myself. but at the same time, i really enjoyed and treasure this new bunch of friends. i guess there’s nothing wrong with them.

it’s me.