i guess i’m getting paranoid and overly sensitive. i really get bothered about what others say about me nowadays.:/ especially eehui’s words which in short meant ‘hurt’. i guess you just want to win us and i am sure you will because i really look up to you and really think you are smart. life is not all about competing and winning. at least, i dont think you look at things this way but there’s nothing i can do.

today’s the last facil briefing and gosh, i can’t believe i won’t be seeing them soon. like during the psc, we saw each other everyday, and all of a sudden we’re not going to see each other for a looooonnnnnggggg time. i sure will miss everything and everyone!

it was quite fun since our grup was really actively participating in consortium meeting B and giving comments and making amendments. it felt really good to see such enthusiasm since we were all quite shy and dead for the past few days. and rahh, i don’t like sharon calling me librarian. everybody’s super shocked that i’m in library, i guess it’s pretty unbelievable but it’s a fact that i’m in library.

i kept irritating daryl today especially since today he was teaching us some of the new games. and i realised how cute he was getting? and had fun chasing him after he started ‘annoying’ me. when i walked out of the ispark room, i ruffled his hair on the way. and elaine was like, ‘EH EH EH. got something going on eh?!’ erms?

the facs went for so-called facs outing which was eating at macs, stoning at the bus stop for half an hour, trying to decide where to go, and finaly deciding to go orchard where we couldn’t decide where to go AGAIN. so we went to the mrt station and sat down to discuss about the facs item. i left at 4.30 because i just didn’t know what i was there for.

i realised i’m not as sociable as i thought. i just can’t blend with the st nicks people. we’re so different and they’re always in conversations which i cannot join in, leading in me joining the guys’ conversations. now even vivian thinks that i’m flirting. maybe i am, but it’s mainly because i cant talk with the st nicks girls.

i think the hwachong guys are really nice to talk to, those conversations without a specific topic. like CAIHONGLIANG. he kept threatening to ignore me on msn next time if i kept irritating him and i was so submissive? NOOO! he cannot do that or i’ll seriously have nobody to talk to! and i started acting like my own self and ’sa jiao’ with him. and that ended up in everyone thinking that i have something going on with him. how can i have something going on with him when he keeps asking me to go find aw wenhao? rahh. ironic la.