Sick again.

Fever-ing for the past two days and have been lying in bed like a lazy pig. All Cai Hong Liang’s fault. Who ask him to go out when he’s having fever?! Go around passing to others.

Grah, but it’s my fault la. Immune system has been weak these few days. Just found out from the doctor that my entire throat is infested with ulcers. I dislike the entire respiratory system and the organs. My windpipe’s going to swell sooner of later, again and again. Have two days mc, most probably not going to school tomorrow either. Head hurts and I don’t have the strength to study for chemistry test tomorrow. Might as well rest at home then suffer in school.

The stupid pills were easy to swallow till the gargling with some water mixed with the capsule part came. I tried gargling, ended up puking out my pills and breakfast and other what nots. Yuck.

Anyway, Hong Liang was nice to sms me before he left :] I didn’t hear my phone vibrate as I was too engrossed in my book or slightly deaf from the throbbing brain, or I would have replied with a Bon Voyage or something in that context. Well, he’ll be back in a flash and no doubt I’ll miss this friend of mine :]

Vicki, notice I used the word friend. So please don’t make any assumptions

Saw Yeeyin’s blog and went to check the search engine thingy for my blog. Hilarious.

1) Yeo Kai Lin Jodie (Weird people actually searched for my name)

2) Topless (What the? I don’t have topless photos at all, not to mention on my blog)

3) Letter J in flowers (Wow. I’m a flower. I’m ‘blooming ‘ amused)

4) 女人 (Ahem. I can become 男人 too)

That was lame. Just trying to revive the blog. And Gwen didn’t update our blog Why Why!

Happy CNY

wow. time passes so fast!

bai nian-ing has been boring except that hongliang entertains me the whole time :] some photoa couple of photos here, no commenting on how ugly i look though because i’ve been gross looking the entire cny. it’s too mundane for me to blog about cny so i’m just going to not bother. xD

and hey vicki, HUGE ACHIEVEMENTS! i wore heels for cny, every day i went out. &, *jaw drop* i wore a skirt, and it’s not the long kind. can’t believe i did all those. :X

Yawn

i can’t be bothered to post anymore. i’m always so sleepy and tired, but i still do my homework okay! i don’t owe miss quek any homework up to date and that is a mean feat for me!

chinese new year is coming! i have no new clothes but i do have clothes that i’ve not worn before which i guess i will for bai nian. i bought two pairs of shoes though: a pair of red slingbacks at $15.90, and just bought a pair of kitten heels at $10 at amk hub. cheap shoes are good so i can keep buying new ones without feeling xin tong!

going out with serene and michelle is fun with michelle tang ponding over white or black shoes! so hilarious! & i was walking around the shop barefooted, OOPS.

 anyway, happy chinese new year people! you know I love YOU.

p.s if any of you want to buy fiesta coupons, contact me

ZOMG.

gosh. my chinese results are SUCKY. i got A2 which is seriously depressing, but the thought that i got highest in my class of FIVE people, makes it slightly more comforting. sighh. li lan laoshi came up to me and asked how are my results and she sort of guessed that my oral pulled it down which is seriously true..

anyway, she told me that she actually wanted michelle tang and i to be in her class. our class split into two, the so-called poorer in chinese students with chenyongming and the better ones with her. but she thought it’ll be weird to split the both of us up since there were only five. PHEWW.. because she’s a good teacher but i’ll prefer slacking since i’m just going to pass for higher chinese. & with the chinese scholars on her side, it’ll be seriously STRESSFUL!

yesterday, after receiving our results, they made us go to the hall and see the sec 4s get theirs. our school’s standard is super high and FREAKY la. michelle and i were sort of stunned, haha. they made those with more than 7A1s go up to the stage, so cool la, i also want yuxi got 10A1s la! FREAKKK!

was trying to comfort ollie but she rejected me was feeling so dejected after that till i cried for her.

BUSIEST WEEK

this is TERM ONE WEEK THREE, the busiest week of my life till now.

 4 tests: biology, chemistry, emath, geography. however, i guess there’ll be more coming up. GRAH. but for the time being, NEXT WEEK IS TEST-LESS. yay yay!

but still, there’s HOMEWORK. if we follow the new numbers, meaning EM1, EM2 etc etc, i don’t owe any homework AT ALL. believe it or not? i can’t, haha.

got back the circles test and set notation test, which i expected to fail for both. surprisingly, i got 16/30 for the circles and…

24/25 for the set notation! wow wow. so proud of myself! amazing la! i’ve never done so well for math before! but i guess i was lucky, because i didn’t exactly understand the questions and concept. but still, IT’S A GOOD START FOR THE YEAR.

during the 75th anniversary mass, the stupid school let off two birds, CAGED BIRDS. one couldn’t really fly and was caught back, and the other got caught by some stupid crow (heard that it let it go though.) stupid rituals..

during chinese, stupid chenyongming kept picking on me. stupid guy. & now there’s this higher chinese speech competition, which our class has to send one representative. our class is made up of about 14 people, 5 of which is from charity and the rest from loyalty. WHICH ALSO MEANS HE’S GOING TO PICK FROM THE FIVE OF US. & he said that i should write a good speech as 40% of hope is placed on me. WHAT THE?! GRAH.

past two chinese lessons have been playing neopets for me and michelle yay!

OH, and we went RJC on monday! saw sharon, wanxin and vionna plus plus jasmine, jaslene, monica! so cool eh! & we went into their library to slack. HAHA. and wait for the rain to stop. MISSED THEM A LOT! <3

stupid vicki, got me hooked on F.I.R. :/

NEW YEAR

2008 already! so fasttt. i’m not ready to work hard. ><

anyway, PSL-ing for one diligence 08′ till now has been great! it’s in the same classroom as one unity 07′ so it actually brings back a lot of memories, especially the part where i get overwhelmed by the girls.

however, i’m a bit dead this year and not as enthusiastic as the previous time. but still, i do communicate with some of the lovely people in the class, mainly sophia (who’s permanently stuck to me for the time being), si ci (who’s si’en’s sister, super alike in terms of mannerisms and physical appearance) and rachel, maryanne etc etc.

original plan of skipping the stayover for orientation camp changed since vivian became a psl last minute and i found a ’sticking’ mate. i hate stayovers.

anyway, hope i’ll cope tomorrow and the day after.

ONEDILIGENCE08′ <3

Evan&Isaac

these two are seriously the cutest!

isaac the crybaby and evan the forever hyper kid!

Catalyst

One word: Wonderful

CIP-ing at Catalyst Infant and Childcare Centre was fabulous. Working our maternal instincts and not forgetting our ‘charm’ with the kids.

Right Vivian? I know Justin loves you.

I think what was memorable about the whole activity was the carrying of children and coaxing them. Amazing how kids react to human touch, watching them fight and do their own things, oblivious to whatever’s going on around them.

Changing in full view of everyone after their shower was cute, since the boys and girls don’t seem to notice their physical differences. Maybe except for BRANSON TAN WEI JIE who didn’t want to dry himself because I was sitting on a chair next to him.

The teachers there were really nice and I guess Vivian, Chengmun and I are appreciated and well-received by all of them. Especially by Yueting who’s super duper happy that we’re returning on Monday. With an age gap of six years, she feels like we’re her classmates. Plus, she’s super nice just like the rest.

I can’t wait for Monday, hope I’ll be much better then, I wouldn’t want to pass on anymore germs. But guess what, I caught a flu from the kids. grah. & I’ll bring a camera!

& yes, I promise to be back on Monday, and this is the 20+ time I;m saying it, ok, Chen Wei Jie & Wu Long Hao?

FRIDAY :]

friday was WHOOSHHH~

first thing up in the morning was consortium outing and i got vivian to go with me, taking the role of my cousin. we were late, pretty late, found the others playing bridge at macs which left me with ‘?’s.

attendance was good, eight people in total: kenneth, nella, cheryl, yuyue, shawn, alan, vivian & me. wow wow.

we headed towards the beach and started with mostly stoning until vivian, nella and i decided to hunt for pretty shells! walking along the beach, picking up lovely shells and going deeper and deeper into the water, without planning to get wet, which we did. nella introduced the super duper fun, sandball making which is duper fun, like making ice balls in the olden days. & there came the splashing of water, and the two people, vivian and me, who did not plan to get wet so we wore white to reduce heat absorption, got wet, like duh. even people like kenneth who did not want to get wet came into the water to play!

holding hands and bobbing up and down in the water was fun, but after we went deeper and deeper, vivian lost her balance & due to her lack of swimming abilities, she panicked and tried to drown me, in that context

& the lovely people gave me a surprise belated birthday celebration! so sweeeeeet!

BUT, i forgot to take pictures with my own camera even though it was in my bag. grah, now i have to wait for the pictures.

anyway, after that, vivian and i went to orchard to meet the other facs for dinner, then LOVE ME, HATE ME, KILL ME NOW.

by the way, anybody wants JIAWEI FOR $10 A NIGHT?

the production was funny in the crazy manner, & they were shouting A LOT, hope their throats are fine. after the production, the facs & the 12slc people went over to newton for supper while vivian and i stayed at rgs. we actually planned to go home but wanxin came over and we chat chat chat, then sharon came over and we chat chat chat. so ended up chatting a lot. i love love wanxin and sharonnnn <3

grah. i want to have facs outing soon, better plan one this week. if not, i’ll be busy with the psle posting day and the sec one orientation and the cca fair. i LOVE sec ones, but not next year’s batch, which is freakishly my sister’s batch. *puke*

& gosh, MISS QUEK CALLED FOR MY HOMEWORK. shitshit.

Hopeful, maybe.

Only Hope- Mandy Moore
There’s a song that’s inside of my soul
It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again
I’m awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you’re my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you’re my only hope

I give You my destiny
I’m giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I’m giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you’re my only hope

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Seriously, I’m not sure anymore. I’m just not that kind of girl yeah?

OK fine,?I admit, I’m not a normal girl, or even, a normal human. Hmmm.. Just exclude the fact that at times, I do have feelings even though they are often neglected by others or abandoned by me. Other than that, I want to label myself as, in a positive manner, a “UNIQUE & SPECIAL” character. In short, weird, but OI, everyone’s different! :]

Going out with Michelle and Vicki was kind of fun if you exclude the shopping for clothes part. I apologise but I dislike shopping (it’ll be hate if it were not with friends). This makes me want to kill Adam and Eve, though I know they’re dead. WHY DID THEY HAVE TO EAT THE FORBIDDEN FRUIT? If they didn’t, we’ll all be frolicking naked without having to bother about clothes and other what-nots. & I will not have to bother about spending money on some piece of cloth which you usually pay for the brand and so-called quality. I hate being human for their self-conscious ways and also their scheming minds. I would much rather be a simple minded person who will be contented with a tree over my head and a slice of bread to eat. & it’ll also be a huge plus, if I do not have to spend a?quarter of my life studying something that I’m not interested in, not that I know what I’m interested in since i’m only thinking about what we’re having next period and counting down to recess then dismissal then the end of CCA.

How can some people look at things so positively? I think they’ll have to deprive me of school first before I can treasure it. But I doubt I will either, with a totally different mindset, I think school is a waste of time, in fact, if heaven is like what they say, I don’t see why we have to experience life on Earth first. Can’t we just live in heaven straight away? Anyway, we’ll die sooner or later, why give us the chance to live in a place where the cost of living is getting higher and higher & the pollution is killing us day by day?

I know one day I’m going to look back at this post again & laugh at how my weird mindset is making me crazy. One day, I’ll be self-conscious (maybe?) and I’ll start protesting to my past self, yelling to myself, “HEY! RETAIL THERAPY, RETAIL THERAPY! LIFE IS ALL ABOUT SHOPPING!” And perhaps by then, I’ll think that appearances mean A LOT and start bothering about those, dressing up? But for now, I’ll prefer not to like those. WASTE OF TIME. & perhaps by then, I’ll realise how lucky I am to be here on Earth, or if I live super long, I’ll realise how nice Earth is when I move to Mars or some other planet just because the ozone layer is depleting.

Sigh. I think I’m thinking too much? Or am I just blinded by the rest of the world and you?

So Yesterday

    

We were once in a room with four walls, perhaps with no way out, and only ourselves to depend on. All of a sudden, we’re being flung about in an anti-gravity dimension, slammed onto the four dull walls enclosing us inside. When I wake up from my unconscious state, I look around the room and instead of the original seven people, there is a decrease of numbers, perhaps three or four. All I know is that, we’re not together anymore.

In just a few short days, everything has changed. It may seem like it’s my fault since I’m the one speaking up, but I guess it was my mind leading me the whole time, doing what’s right instead of what I want. I’ve done it and I’m not going to spend my holidays moping around because of a decision I made.

Actually, to me, all these aren’t going to change the way I treat you or view you. I’m still going to be your good friend next year, IF you let me. I’ve already taken the approach of ‘forgive and forget’, now it’s your part to play. In our friendship, two hands clapping aren’t enough and my acceptance won’t be adequate. It’s your choice from here on.

& I’ll support you in everything you do.

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CIB- COUNCILLORS IN BLUE 2007

1ST STUDENT COUNCIL: LUMEN

Yay! The investiture was on the 16th of november & it was quite successful from my point of view because… I DID NOT FORGET MY DANCE STEPS!

It was super hot wearing the investiture uniform from 10 am onwards, through the prize presentation as well since we were short of transition time between prize presentation and the investiture. Sadly, the prize presentation was delayed too & that meant we had less time to decorate the hall which we were not allowed to do so before the day itself because of the primary section. It was a really stressful period of time for everyone trying to get the chairs arranged and the remaining decorations done. But it was worth it for the FIRST student council.

The walking out was fine and I was kind of shocked by everyone because the cheering didn’t seem so loud when caralyn walked, and I realised that the cheering was OVERWHELMING when i walked down the aisle. SCARY. The dancing part was kind of embarrassing, in fact, VERY EMBARRASSING. Luckily I was standing on the main stage instead of the central stage, which I was supposed to dance on in front of all the guests, but phewww, I swopped with Mivio and stood in the middle of the stage. Super scary still, but better than dancing wrongly on the central stage.

It was fun cheering for everyone especially for LAUSHERNIN, the ‘BEST’ candidate for dancing on the central stage. After the entire ceremony ended, we went to the family lounge for lunch and I was greeted by my lovely DRAMA GIRLS, who asked me to kope drinks for them, which I did.

I took a few pictures with michelle A.L., chengmun, genin, tess and vivian, which are above. I have only a few with me so these will be it. The rest will come soon, I hope, GENIN’S DAD HURRY!

Secret(s)

i think letting someone know your secret(s) is/are BAD. especially when it’s during chemistry & this ELIZABETH assumes stuff and goesss “awwwwww……..” the whole time thinking that it’s cute? in addition, giving me first names, which i will get after marriage. -.-

anyway, today was super productive because i did math! didnt complete but i did some questions! HAHA.

today’s investiture rehearsal was fun! i guess i appreciate LUMEN more now. it’s so catchy.. lumen lumen lumen. my attempts at memorising steps are failures! but we all had fun! the sec twos know me better now i think, as the siao zha bor. i like lumen! so fun so fun. i hope they get a catchy song though, to ‘neutralise’ the sort of horrid dance. but nevermind. just enjoy the whole process! PLUS, i got my investiture uniform! YAY YAY! one more week to investiture. chiong practice monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday. CHIONG! so fun so fun!

birthday yesterday was retarded. went for facs chalet OT meeting and facs outing. luckily it was kind of low profile la. phewww. eating at macs with facs was super fun, listening to all those gossips and stuff. AND DETAILS OF HOW CHENXING BREATHED AN USED UNDERWEAR DEEPLY. duh, exaggeration.. taking chenxing’s bags was fun too! hahahahahaha! that horny shit was on the phone while i walked past him, bidding farewell. HOHO. after lunch, went to find henry at plaza singapura toastbox, super retarded in the uniform! but we didnt go in, it was super duper crowded!

japanese dinner at night! had nice food and nice cake! and 200 dollars angpaos! no presents though, but suibian la:D met kuan there & realised that his dad was a customer of my dad. my aunts were just wondering why they kept looking in our direction, appearing to be planning how to kidnap us. ahah!

♥lumen; 1st student council!

Tomorrow

3C’07  simply unforgettable

my lovely family is oh so lovely. from left: sereneBROTHER, jodieMUMMY, xiaoqiBABY, elizabethSISTER & vickiGRANDMA. for your information, the father aka michelle annelim is not in the picture because she was fooling around with yongmei, our female dog aka BITCH aka eileen tan was perhaps flirting with the bulldog next door & our lovely meowmeow cat aka michelle tang dumped us for blanche.

that was so narrative and BORING. i’m bored, what to do? have not been using the computer lately due to my super nice sister who use it day to night.

I LOVE ELIZABETH! i will miss her a lot a lot. i need her daily entertainment, her ramblings over her guys, her graphic details of her kisses, her talk about EDWARD CULLENS!

plus, i’m not safe! she knows more than she should. i cannot leave her alone if not she might tell everyone about *ahem*! oh no!

alright, jodie, stop hyperventilating.

anyway, results are pretty bad. L1R5 of 33? & a MSG skyhigh. bleahs. study study study during holidays!

tomorrow’s the day, but i dont really care la. it comes every year anyway– the dreaded birthday. some people have already wished me a happy birthday:

1. deborah & wanjuan! thanks for the really nice bookmark and pouch, love you two!

2. sheila & jessie

3. shawnteo & *ahem* jay seetow

actually quite a lot already. my dad seems a little secretive. maybe he got me a present? can’t be though, he has never given me a birthday present anyway. eating sushi tomorrow night, yay!

facs chalet OT meeting tomorrow morning, then facs outing! havent seen most of them for ages! & oh no, i’m in a HUAYU COOL mood after replying don’s sms. aly’s going to suffer tomorrow, perhaps xD

yay yay. hopefully no one remembers my birthday tomorrow!

anyway, the student council list is out and i’m in… yiying’s wing–LUMEN. ok, i know the name sucks. it’s supposed to mean LIGHT in latin. can’t they use lustro or something else? sounds more sophisticated than the centres of blood vessels.

people who are planning to come for the investiture, DON’T COME. or else i’ll fall down the steps and sprain my ankle, or even break it. BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO DO THE BIMBO CHEERLEADING thing/dance that they choreographed. can’t we do something easier and more special? so BORING. sigh, this is one thing i don’t like about girls’ school. they just love the BIMBO dance. bleahs.

SIGH

ZOMG to screwing up o’level chinese. i can kill myself if i don’t get an A, seriously & i think i will have to. i’ve learnt something about myself today: i don’t see question numbers. I’M GOING TO BURN THOSE BROCHURE TYPE PAPERS. freakfreak, i don’t know how to flipppp, now i’m going to flipppp and so are my results– from A to nice nice F. arggghhhh!

 CIP on saturday at 6pm, i’m so hardworking. i love love triathlons, drink stations are majorly funfun! anyway, east coast again this time! perhaps it will have younger men this time? so i can see who’s suitable for EEHUI! hohoho! then she can get rid of her gaijin and he will stop harrassing her! see eehui, i’m so nice to youuuu!

i want kinokuniya and BOOOKS. i still have my sixty bucks voucher and perhaps buy the three books: twilight, new moon & eclipse. just buy these since people say they’re nice, anyway i can’t make up my mind on what i want.

i doubt you really bother if i care or not, but all of us are behind you and we’ll support you in whichever choice you make. only advice: think carefully and don’t regret. 

HiC

yesterday was so laughable:)

went hwachong for some drama competition and it was superbly entertaining. vivian and i met up with jiaee, and supposedly mel and aly. but aly was sick and mel went in first. met a lot of other people as well.

the performances were alright except they were a bit confusing but it was entertaining all the same.

we laughed at chenxing dancing tribal dance, very successfully looking like an aborignal. we laughed at akilan’s body paint which sort of had a sexual connotation to it. we laughed at desmond’s totally gelled hair which was whoooo. we laughed at naifu’s attempt to act as a weird music geek(he managed to be weird). we laughed at sean writing with a feather without touching the paper. we laughed at chernyuen when he sang, ““I’ve walked the streets of Cairo and Bombay”, thinking it was some public declaration of love.

other than that, the other two, meaning vivian and jiaee, spent their time staring at that souffle french chef. tsktsk. his braces were sparkling the whole time, so hilarious. & he seriously looks like delon, except that he’s older.

other than that, nothing much besides siam-ing when i saw someone. :/

Conversations

I LOVE LOVE LOVE ALYYYYYYYYYY<3

i see the irony in that sentence! today is a total confession day with lots of gossip.

& i realised how retarded chenxing is. he wanted to send me the softcopy of the tickets to his topless dance. -.- funny guyyyy!

<2 minutes…

for donuts

i don’t know why, but it’s always these sudden cravings, not for donuts but for buying them. i got a dozen in less than 2 minutes. like what eehui said, i took more time ordering than queuing. hehe.

chinese remedial today was total boredom but a little weirdness, especially since i was in genin’s red light district. but i’m not going there because jinghan’s service is much better and much cheaper.

everything was made fun by eehui! hoho! suntec walking is tiring though. but say woohoo to ben n jerry’s. so expensive! i shall buy tubs next time.

counting with eehui the cost for a lifetime supply of ice cream, one tub every two weeks, was stupid. it costs a lot a lot, like over ten thousand? whoa whoa.

i can imagine eehui’s sj mates when they receive ONE donut, that means sharing between 4-5 people. HAHA.

yay to mrt ride today. stupid man playing some lame song game on his phone, wearing earphones, though they dont work. stupid aunties making me guilty for not giving up my seat. but there was hot guy. laugh laugh. 

i wasnt looking alright? just see see look look, see the green pastures and snow caps. and got reminded of *shit* henryyyyyyyy. sigh. nightmares tonight.  

thinking whether to go for the humanities drama thing in hwachong. i want to see chenxing dancing topless. imagine a black bamboo stick dancing, yepp, so chenxinggggg..

gosh.

 grah.. just found out something which is making me sad/depressed. gosh. my vocabulary’s getting limited.

oh gosh. i hate the letter J. i hate myself, a lot a lot.

  

Stop it, Jodie

just finished stoning around. sat in the toilet to cry and bathe, coming out an hour later. sat around in the balcony to cry, again.

i was just doing some reflection on year 2007, thinking of a lot of the events that happened this year, seeking for some direction on how next year should be, thinking what my dreams are.

& this totally wrong thinking just came into my mind: my dream is to make a change to people’s life, by donating all my organs to them.

and that, also means premature dying, which also means i was thinking of suicide. i was sitting in the balcony thinking of the way i should die so that my organs will remain perfectly fine and usable.

sometimes i wonder what’s life for, and why i actually think. i’ll prefer not to think. i don’t see why i should study either, since i don’t really plan to donate my brain with all that ‘wisdom’ in it.

“Seriously, Jodie, you should just stop it.”

grah. i’ll go write my letter to straits times forum.

Tired, really.

these two days of lessons have been really tiring for me, for us, for everyone. the extended lessons for each subjects have been really really dragggyyyyy, especially for literature and chinese. i don’t want to study anymore. >.<

playing bingo and some pen flicking game with mynehneh aka michelle tang was fun fun. whoa, i’m pro at drawing the obstacles for the pen game, try having some weird spongebob thing and my *ahem* mickey mouse, molly, awong and a boob-groping seth tan. hoho. i’m real pro:D

now it’s time for mugging, again. looking at my poor results, i have lots to catch up. so there’ll be lots of studying during the holidays for almost everyone. plus, school ends only on the 16th of november.

talking about 16th november, the teachers have decided not to ‘axe’ anyone from the student council. but if we get a good and below for our conduct and leadership, we will have a chat. hmm. actually it sounds interesting, but i’ll rather hope not to as gwong is really intimidating in a sense. and that also means that… i’ll be invested on the 16th. :O haha! i’m going zi high again.

ohh. and i love the pretty intelligent girls in our class., love sitting all together in a row. <3

PROMOTED; phew

results are BAD overall but hey, I CAN GET PROMOTED.

EL- B4

HCL- C6

MA- C6

AM- F9

CHEM- C6

BIO- D7

ELIT- D7

C. HUMANS- F9

alright. it’s so interesting, i failed all the papers i received today and passed all those yesterday. i kind of expected the results since i’ve been playing my way through the whole year.

but what really surprised me was that i passed my emath and chemistry, and i’ve never passed these two subjects before. which is yayness, but i failed my amath! my amath is usually better than my emath though.

and my higher chinese is a total mess. 51.5/110, i though it was overall and got scared. but phew, i realised i got 53% overall. lucky… for combined humanities, it’s was really really expected due to me doing last minute revision of whatever i studied. but my sickness was getting in the way, sorry to the class for my unstoppable coughing and sneezing and other what-nots.

oh wells. what’s over is over. we can only move foward or stay stationary. why not move forward? CHARGEEEE!

now i have to worry for my lovely daughter, eliz, who’s at risk but i bet she’ll be fine because she has my high IQ too! :] except that she doesn’t use it, just like me. in the genes, in the genes… but we have good luck going round too, so i bet she can do it!

blabbering doesn’t help. i’m just too nice to actually say something evil. & i’m not convinced, at all. you should have wrote a letter of whatever crap you wanted to say instead of wasting our time. & this also means i’ll be able to throw it away too. i think your reasons were simply a repetition to emphasise something that is totally unacceptable.

haven’t you learnt in english that when you argue, you focus on the pros and not the cons? i think focusing on the cons will not help to persuade us, or at least me.

since you don’t know how to juggle friendships, let me help you. i’ll just back out myself, not that i really treasure any of this anymore. it’s not worth it and i need someone who actually persuades with words and not her tears.

In short,

• stayovers at grandma’s house
• hanging with eehui in orchard
• going with her to german institute
• hanging out at scotts isetan with aunt and sister
• going to aunt’s house & ate ben ‘n’ jerry
• lots of slacking
• megan’s birthday party
• craving for books

and i shall read later! still have three books which i borrowed for the library. after those, trip to bishan library!

& yay to Aly &AJ! not to forget ashley tisdale’s headstrong!

Over

the much hated examinations are over, so finally… i guess my emotions, or should i say senses got the better of me. i screwed up my last few papers real bad, especially english literature, additional mathematics and elective geography. what can i do? over already, shan’t harp on it. like what mrs goh said, “You cannot move backwards so just charge forward.” Wow. I actually listened during assembly:D

anyway, i’m currently staying at my grandmother’s house. all of a sudden i’ve been spending a lot of time here. before the biology paper, before the geography paper etc etc. because of phoebe haha. and not to forget, the forever hyper boys. i’m getting old, i can’t catch up with them.

yesterday was just walking around suntec and marina square, where i had to suffer the noise in the arcade, which i realised was overwhelming. super noisy and blasted. ending with spaggedies was nice though. yumyum.

i just realised i have nothing on tomorrow, which is a holiday. someone doesn’t want to go out with me, i shall go ask vivian to go with me, perhaps.

so irritated with someone, can’t she just stay off our case? and getting those stuff is not going to help. it’s not going to make us look like good friends.

friends are forever. men are whatever.

:D:D

hyper hyper even though i screwed up my papers. which includes, CHINESE. i despise myself but it was tough, the art of cheemology. but at least, i DIDNT fall asleep. lovely lovely.

i love love yesterday for some weird reason which i will not tell because it’s a secret that i cannot tell. shh! haha!

& my computer is superbly screwed. i don’t know what to say la but i’m seriously pissed because this time, it’s my dad. wow la. if he wants to go view you-know-what, i don’t really care since it’s normal but choose the correct sites. don’t choose those frigging sites with frigging viruses that my anti software can’t detect. i bet we have to reformat, again.

FREAK.

finefine

skies clear and shining.

yeeyin, nothing le la. mei guan xi le.

when okay sounds alright but actually it’s not. BOO.

差一点你就是我的女人
差一些就和你共度一生
因为对的时间对的人
就值得我为你奋不顾身
差一点你就是我的女人
差一些手牵手的完整
却在对的时间错过对的人
抓不住幸福时分

eeyer. nice song but lyrics sound soooo wrong.

UGH

i just realised that you’ve seen it. v, did you? urgh. now i don’t even know which v i’m referring to. i mean i know la, but you people might just mess up all the facts and stuff thinking that it’s you and stuff. argh, don’t assume alright? it might not be you, though i don’t deny the fact that i’m bitching about you.

AHH. i give up la. i don’t want to say things just to appease you. enough. i had enough of planning to say the truth and end up exaggerating.

EEYER. jodie yeo, when are you going to stop exaggerating EVERYTHING you say?! enough. you’re just this huge bitch who keeps on hurting others while attempting to appease the other.

people say that i’m a human magnet, but i realised that all of them end up disliking me. it’s time to do all the reflection again. all these problem solving, after exams.

President’s Star Charity & ..

last night’s PSC was really hilarious with really obvious lipsynching which was made worse by daren tan of CSS. i guess i sort of realised it when olinda, michelle and jade came out to perform, their lips were just too exaggerated, who the hell sings with their lips opening and closing like goldfishes? it was convincing at first, a bit, until daren did a flip and his controls dropped out and yet there was this voice still singing. i should say he’s powerful since he can project his voice through the speakers without the mike working.

i was kind of disappointed by the kal ho naa ho performance as well. pretty woman really brought back a lot of memories, i believe, for all the 2gracians06′ whether they liked it or not. but for me, it was a pleasant experience where prancing around on stage in my chilli-red costume and bangles, and forgetting the dance steps. i can still remember rushing the day before, last minute work, but i was quite happy with the result, we were entertaining and enjoying ourselves. i was expecting a lot more last night as kym ng made it as if she was having a really hard time dancing and i really expected more sophisticated actions. however, she really disappointed me as i seriously couldn’t see her dancing at all, besides acting coy and all, she was stoning most of the time. eeyer was an apt word.

other than these few performances, i think the rest was alright. i shall not comment about the high school musical one though. i only like the ballroom dancing part and vas&pris. though for a moment, when vas lifted pris, pris’ scarf was wrapped around her head which made me laugh really loud. other than that, it was nice nice. and this means, i don’t even bother to think about dick leeeeee. ALIFF AZIZ<33

oh wells. today. i conquered the hateful subject–emath( fine, i admit i hate all math and sciences). i screwed up paper one but paper two was alright except for the last question which was not badly done, but badly set. i’ll go ask miss quek about that after the last paper. it’s impossible to find her now since the staff room is closed to students because the teachers are debating about the answers to the test papers. but i’m not going to get a pass since i left millions of questions empty for paper one, eeeyerrrr. i think i was the noisiest during the paper, i was like ’shit’-ing the whole time and singing out the question, hoping that i’ll suddenly remember something, shuffling my feet, pulling my hair and scratching my head. i bet de laoshi thought i was cheating. tomorrow’s english will be like walking in the pool, a little tough but will do, at most i’ll swim.

i just got something weird. dadadadadadadadada. & i need my iced milo:D

Pretty woman, dekho dekho na pretty woman
Pretty woman, dekhte ho na pretty woman
Pretty woman, tum bhi kaho na pretty woman

Chemistry

i’ve got the whole chemistry solubility table in my head but i’m losing all that chemistry that i used to have with this certain person. i think the examinations are getting to me, i need to search for that soul i used to have, used to. i guess nowadays i really have my ups and my downs, that didn’t really happen in the past.

i really feel like shutting up and stop talking so much but it’s difficult to sustain because almost everybody will come and ask me why i’m not talking. in the first place, why did i have to build up that character of someone who will die without talking? i should stop hanging onto the past and start moving forward.

oh wells. my memory impressed me last night. i just read through twice and i memorised the solubility table. to think i took so much time in the past to memorise trivial stuff. so satisfied with myself. now i shall continue studying chemistry and emath. haha, and i forgot that i told myself not to use the computer but i’ve been using it pratically everyday. oops.

yesterday i dug out some of my dad’s really old cd which was accumulating dust for years and i’ve taken a liking for richard marx. it’s quite good:D & not to forget, my latest all-time favourite! 西界！

阳光越过窗沿
我在阴影里面
才过正午13点
就漆黑一片
没有人看得见
我心深处的阴暗面
只能眺望东边
你的世界太远
撑到想象的极限
幸福有多甜
可黑夜已吞噬我
就是拉不到你的手 

因为我活在西边
只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面
却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线
在西界的那一边
只能有半个白天
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在长夜的边缘
给我一丝光线
让你能多看我一眼

Big Change

my room is reduced to nothing, sort of. xD we removed the double decked bed and now we’re like deprived kids sleeping on the floor. not that i mind though, i hate sleeping too much above the ground, now i won’t feel so suspended. we added in a new built-in cabinet and brought in a chest of drawers which was initially in the living room.

next step will be painting the walls. i shall wait till my parents find a trusted painter.

scrubbing the bedroom walls was tough but fun at the same time, and the water was of a ‘beautiful’ colour.

i just realised emath is on monday. & i’m not really bothering to study since i need a 75% just to pass and that’s impossible for me. i’ll study chemistry theory stuff first i guess.

i have a sudden weird urge to lie on someone’s lap.

PAPAYA & on the edge

huge amount of hypering today though chinese paper one was shit.

ice cream with bananas was driving me bananas. rusky’s disgusting sniffing around was gross. and idesire&uzap, makes us weirdos but idesire was whoooo…

and plucking papayas made me realise how much talent i have in this aspect. i’m the papaya queen! eehui, you suck la, plucked only one papaya and that hit your shoulder.  hoho!